Showing posts with label poetry. Show all posts
Showing posts with label poetry. Show all posts

Sunday, October 22, 2017

October





It has moved through her so quickly
she barely was able to take a breath in.

Trees now half naked 
branches looking thin
her voice lost its focus
there now is chagrin.


From a tree whose wisdom 
lasts far longer than her hurt
or your anger
comes the reminder that
the universe cycles
like seasons 
with only time
passing
to never be regained again.

She misses you, her son.
She misses you as she always has
when you turn away
convinced 
she is less than any of your stars.
She is, of course, so her ego says
and you are the star that shined ever so brightly first
40 earth years ago.
Perhaps love is not enough,
but it is all she really has 
that indeed she does give freely.
She loves you no matter what.
All else is ony hanging onto
what has passed to never return again.

October ~ the month when losses are huge
upon a heart broken into so many pieces
and considered not good enough
by far too many.

October ~ the month that ushers in two months
of despair and lonely isolations.  Perhaps the reflecting
pool will not be so dark and gloomy this year ~ then again
perhaps it will.  

Yes Loneliness, people do change and finally learn
to simply sit in quiet solitude accepting the current
that flows underneath everything ~ LOVE.

October ~ you too will go away.  

Sunday, August 27, 2017

Palette: the Mist of Now







Awash in an in between
where everything seems foggy
 yet somehow painfully clear
time stopped as she sat
breathing, took little more than a nod
vision unnecessary 
yet there. 


The world had died 
yet this is what living on must be?
A fleeting thought then a floating nothing.
"How strange" she did swear
wondering if quenching her thirst
might bring her back into the world
or at least the world back from its grave.

She reaches over to shift the sound to a musical flow
but she does not know what more to do to make things
fantasy rather than the reality that they now appeared 
surrounding her on all fronts so that there was no edge.
Her unfixed gaze suddenly lands upon blades
of a plant that stands off in another room
barely within the last view.
That breaks the silence of the present 
to fling her into the corners of the 
places easily judged yesterday and tomorrow
forgetting that only now is real.  

Now gone and memories simply little wisps of clouds.  
There was a feeling inside that presence
that left her knowing that only in imaginations
pretending that is how things are
can anyone be certain that they have made themselves 
beyond much of anything
other than the stars.

You cannot get rich being an artist
but you certainly can go acceptably mad 
and be deemed somehow eccentric in 
an odd sort of genius unacknowledged til dead.

She thus retreats to do another self portrait 
probably considered bizarre but for the few
who really understood.
Those few ~ gone and un named too.


~byKateyB



Wednesday, August 2, 2017

Future Hope





A rock wall built on stilts
shall surely fall
Little creatures hiding behind 
believe that wall infallible
all to a led demise

Standing upright outside the line
the surety of disagreement
brings about what the heart knows
is the right to do 

The wall could have been
 a beautiful edge
that allowed not only see through
but guidance to go on beyond

Now the singular islands 
each choosing paths 
heart guided
see one another for efforts
coexisting along side
with no walls.

                                                                   ~byKateyB





Sunday, July 23, 2017

prescience


reaching with ghostly fingers
into the dream that bubbled above the brain
unable to grasp a hold of your hand

let go
without even saying hello
goodbye before  hi


did we know 
before we died
we would hide
til the other side

its a feeling
forming a picture
not yet put into words



Thursday, June 29, 2017

emptiness




the longer sitting there

the closer the darkness enclosed

suffocating comes to mind

the little fists could not break through

as the walls came tighter in

the lump in the throat strangled

the heart so deadened it did not beat

moving the lead feet impossible

the mind no longer even half blind

seemed the final decision was to jump

leave nothing behind

leap over that edge

drowning in the endless depths

of lost forever tears



something has been changing

imperceptible changes at first

yet they crept across the landscape

leaving long dark shadows in their wake

not a stranger these changes

leaving emptiest feelings

at first glimpse thoughts to fight them off

now rushed upon the bowed head

no sense to struggle against

overwhelming forced upon

might as well leap

take that step over the edge

drowning in endless depths

of lost forever tears




the saddest figure sat in lackluster grays

barren of any decoration on walls

unnoticed as no eyes cared to peer in

head dropped to knees pulled to chest

hair tossled below shoulders slumped

tears forcing puddles on glazed ground

overcome by nothingness numbed mind

no directional breeze to change the time

emptied of any thought to care

less than even lonesome alone

might as well leap

take that final step over that last edge

drowing in endless depths

of lost forever tears




sadly it had nothing to do with

any thing any one any time

lacking strength to overcome

shadow of mind

the leap into the never ending

lost pools of tears of time

had the lump not negated the voice

perhaps the cries for help

would have been heard

by even the mind

now only silence deafens muffled

the broken heart

the mind no longer half blind

emptiness begs lost time



Saturday, June 3, 2017

escape from the third dimension


back to the fifth dimension

Body temp 103

(I do not do well in the third dimension.  I struggle to remember
to be faster to listen and slower to speak and suddenly I blurt out
untempered, unthought thru thoughts...... sighs.... )

the insipid body
drags the heart
into that grey

rest
that is what
I need

oh hark
they say
you were
 warned

it was worth it
when I recuperate
when it all is slept upon
the experiences I know
I will appreciate

15?!!???
like so awkward
and so juvenile
as if
the first time
all over again

sighs

for now
I will rest in the arms
of the fifth dimension's charm
content to sleep
hopefully til this
fever breaks

awake




she whispered her own name to awake
ragged edges of worn gown swept across the floor
the warmth of the day already begun
her hair tousled needing the brush
rubbing the bits of left sleep
her lips parted to suck in the morning's breath
one moment she felt stalled
the next inhaled thought
exhaled the beginning of a time
unrequested coming from the side ways
now she knew
one more step forward into that day
when she fell in love with you

awake oh awake 

Saturday, May 20, 2017

JUMP




mounting the ancient bleached stone steps one at a time

she moved quietly albeit somewhat belabored under the age


her eyes first cast down and then up with inhale and exhale


determination glowed in her gentle eyes as slight salty tears shivered


drying before crossing the threshold of her sturdy jaw line


her motivation to see the other side of a chaotic humankind
no temple atop the stairs stretched forth as if vanishing into blue sky
every now but then here a small token of someone who came before


her simplicity of the thought chanted under her breath was no need for why
there will be a brightness shining way up there
when she does finally arrive
there where the souls blend into that peaceful kindness of love for all time


in the darkness there has been light
in the light there was darkness 
yet consulting the inner voice
listening to the sultry at times and soft aged at others
the whisper told of truth none other sound could impart


forever is not how long she climbs
rather just a brief human life time
every now and then a song breaks loose from her lips
to be heard by the meadows and yes even quieted birds


freedom is being without fear of not being accepted

what is


even choices will not matter when the last step is reached


where then she looks and then she becomes
nothing more than aire


jump



Sunday, May 14, 2017

In your Moon






The moon came through the open window
 on an unexpected breeze
 whilst I was sleeping.  

It brushed the hair back from my face
 then kissed me upon my forehead.
I smiled knowing you had sent it 
 as you have done ever since we parted.  

In your moon
I slept
in peace.
Only touching my lips
to it
as I awoke
to send it back
to 
You.


Sunday, May 7, 2017

Pour another Ginger and Jack



Sit down upon the glider
 surrounded by the coolness
 of the late spring breeze
 flowing through the open windows 

Pull the music close 
stare at the unfinished canvas
 that begs for attention
 getting only the distance of the mind
 now lulled in peaceful contentment

She was far away
in the nearness of this day
remembering those times 
when nothing interrupted
the joy of reflection that
now comes back to be
if only her eyes now could see
she came full circle 
in silent reverie


Where did you go

Was I really so foolish

Thinking I had to let you go

Why did I not sit next to you

And wait forever and a day





Sunday, February 26, 2017

for so little




The shadows were black as the night
Yet someone knew they were there
The fire was sharp slicing the silence
The boots on the ground ordered 
Special forces who may well have known
Their cover was blown albeit not the why


They lost that night 
One too many lives
Their hearts aching in grief
They alone will weep 
In loving memory 
Of a life 
gone 
why


for so little
so terribly much
lost





(in memory of Senior Chief Special Warfare Operator William Ryan Owens )