Showing posts with label Meditations. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Meditations. Show all posts

Thursday, June 29, 2017

emptiness




the longer sitting there

the closer the darkness enclosed

suffocating comes to mind

the little fists could not break through

as the walls came tighter in

the lump in the throat strangled

the heart so deadened it did not beat

moving the lead feet impossible

the mind no longer even half blind

seemed the final decision was to jump

leave nothing behind

leap over that edge

drowning in the endless depths

of lost forever tears



something has been changing

imperceptible changes at first

yet they crept across the landscape

leaving long dark shadows in their wake

not a stranger these changes

leaving emptiest feelings

at first glimpse thoughts to fight them off

now rushed upon the bowed head

no sense to struggle against

overwhelming forced upon

might as well leap

take that step over the edge

drowning in endless depths

of lost forever tears




the saddest figure sat in lackluster grays

barren of any decoration on walls

unnoticed as no eyes cared to peer in

head dropped to knees pulled to chest

hair tossled below shoulders slumped

tears forcing puddles on glazed ground

overcome by nothingness numbed mind

no directional breeze to change the time

emptied of any thought to care

less than even lonesome alone

might as well leap

take that final step over that last edge

drowing in endless depths

of lost forever tears




sadly it had nothing to do with

any thing any one any time

lacking strength to overcome

shadow of mind

the leap into the never ending

lost pools of tears of time

had the lump not negated the voice

perhaps the cries for help

would have been heard

by even the mind

now only silence deafens muffled

the broken heart

the mind no longer half blind

emptiness begs lost time



Thursday, May 11, 2017

aberrant companions






My soul sometimes bleeds through sleep, leaving me bewildered with a wakefulness that was less about thoughts and more about deep penetrating feelings that left scars so very long ago one almost but never forgets nor forgot.  

I just wished there were even one other soul buried inside one other human that I might connect with in silent understanding so that sitting with no spoken words was a deep presence desired by both.  

Like a human who wishes to fly ~ this soul has turned ghostly white waiting for its release.  

Perhaps in the mists or even the darkness I might find you to commune with whilst both of our souls remain encased in these human sarcophagi.