Thursday, June 29, 2017

emptiness




the longer sitting there

the closer the darkness enclosed

suffocating comes to mind

the little fists could not break through

as the walls came tighter in

the lump in the throat strangled

the heart so deadened it did not beat

moving the lead feet impossible

the mind no longer even half blind

seemed the final decision was to jump

leave nothing behind

leap over that edge

drowning in the endless depths

of lost forever tears



something has been changing

imperceptible changes at first

yet they crept across the landscape

leaving long dark shadows in their wake

not a stranger these changes

leaving emptiest feelings

at first glimpse thoughts to fight them off

now rushed upon the bowed head

no sense to struggle against

overwhelming forced upon

might as well leap

take that step over the edge

drowning in endless depths

of lost forever tears




the saddest figure sat in lackluster grays

barren of any decoration on walls

unnoticed as no eyes cared to peer in

head dropped to knees pulled to chest

hair tossled below shoulders slumped

tears forcing puddles on glazed ground

overcome by nothingness numbed mind

no directional breeze to change the time

emptied of any thought to care

less than even lonesome alone

might as well leap

take that final step over that last edge

drowing in endless depths

of lost forever tears




sadly it had nothing to do with

any thing any one any time

lacking strength to overcome

shadow of mind

the leap into the never ending

lost pools of tears of time

had the lump not negated the voice

perhaps the cries for help

would have been heard

by even the mind

now only silence deafens muffled

the broken heart

the mind no longer half blind

emptiness begs lost time



Saturday, June 3, 2017

escape from the third dimension


back to the fifth dimension

Body temp 103

(I do not do well in the third dimension.  I struggle to remember
to be faster to listen and slower to speak and suddenly I blurt out
untempered, unthought thru thoughts...... sighs.... )

the insipid body
drags the heart
into that grey

rest
that is what
I need

oh hark
they say
you were
 warned

it was worth it
when I recuperate
when it all is slept upon
the experiences I know
I will appreciate

15?!!???
like so awkward
and so juvenile
as if
the first time
all over again

sighs

for now
I will rest in the arms
of the fifth dimension's charm
content to sleep
hopefully til this
fever breaks

awake




she whispered her own name to awake
ragged edges of worn gown swept across the floor
the warmth of the day already begun
her hair tousled needing the brush
rubbing the bits of left sleep
her lips parted to suck in the morning's breath
one moment she felt stalled
the next inhaled thought
exhaled the beginning of a time
unrequested coming from the side ways
now she knew
one more step forward into that day
when she fell in love with you

awake oh awake 

Saturday, May 20, 2017

JUMP




mounting the ancient bleached stone steps one at a time

she moved quietly albeit somewhat belabored under the age


her eyes first cast down and then up with inhale and exhale


determination glowed in her gentle eyes as slight salty tears shivered


drying before crossing the threshold of her sturdy jaw line


her motivation to see the other side of a chaotic humankind
no temple atop the stairs stretched forth as if vanishing into blue sky
every now but then here a small token of someone who came before


her simplicity of the thought chanted under her breath was no need for why
there will be a brightness shining way up there
when she does finally arrive
there where the souls blend into that peaceful kindness of love for all time


in the darkness there has been light
in the light there was darkness 
yet consulting the inner voice
listening to the sultry at times and soft aged at others
the whisper told of truth none other sound could impart


forever is not how long she climbs
rather just a brief human life time
every now and then a song breaks loose from her lips
to be heard by the meadows and yes even quieted birds


freedom is being without fear of not being accepted

what is


even choices will not matter when the last step is reached


where then she looks and then she becomes
nothing more than aire


jump